Die to self

Today during my quiet time I was so aware of the fact that I have allowed Jesus to be the savior of my soul, but I have not allowed him to be the Lord of my life. I am the lord of my life. My life is pretty much about me....what I want to do, what I feel like doing, what would be good for me. I realized it has been awhile since I have done something for others. OK, so I have kids and a husband and of course do things for them. And my work is pretty much about serving others. But the truth be known about work is that I probably do it for the "me" factor involved. I get to say "I work at the hospital. I'm a Child Life Specialist. blah, blah." Are my motives to love others, to serve others. Sometimes maybe. I want my life to be a reflection of Jesus' love for us. I want him to love others through me. But I have to learn to get over myself to do this. I am having a hard time with that. How can I live for him when it is still pretty much about me?I've been talking with him lately about my "Me" issues. I know he can do a work in me and have him be the larger part of me. But I also know that I have a part in that equation. Less of me + more of Jesus = goodness. We have such a short time in the world and if I am here to do the purpose he has me here for....I need to get busy with "Him" and not so busy with "me". Make sense?