Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Day 1 - learning to listen

Today is the start of the 21 day fast with my church. Not a fast to get forgiveness from God or get God to do something, but a fast to get "see" God better. I truly believe that God does not change. He is always right with us to guide, protect, encourage, etc. It is our own view that changes. Sometimes I do not "feel" God but I realize that is my perspective and not the reality. It becomes my reality but it is not God's reality. So I began this fast with the intentions of seeing and hearing God better. Changing my perspective to match His reality. There are so many situations where if I would just open my eyes or my heart, I could see God. I choose to focus on other things instead and live from my perspective rather then God's.  The verse for the start of the fast is from Joel 2:12:

"Even now," declares the Lord, "return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning."

I was reading in Genesis 7 about God telling Noah to build the ark and put the animals in. Verse 5 says, "And Noah did all that the Lord commanded him."  I was amazed at that because Noah heard God and obeyed. If it were me, I would have drowned. I first would have doubted if it was really God speaking. I would have analyzed it to death and convinced myself I was part crazy and that it was not really God speaking. God speaks to us all today. But do we hear? I pray we all open our ears to hear what God is saying. Sometimes I wish God sent emails or Facebook posts, but knowing myself, I am sure I would again analyze it and convince myself that it was not God speaking.

As I first began reading, it came to me to start a blog about my thoughts and feeling during the fast. It will make me accountable in the fact that I will have to blog each day. Was it inspiration from God telling me to blog or my own desires....not sure...but I know I do not want to analyze every idea to the point of inactivity. The bible says in John 10:3 that "The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep recognize his voice and come to him." I want to recognize God's voice and follow it. I want to stop the constant questioning and analyzing. I want to learn to be like Noah and do "all that the Lord commanded", instead of "drowning".
For more info about fasting, visit www.awake21.org

2 comments:

  1. That's good. Are you really going to fast for 21 days? Surely not 21 straight, right? Either way, reading God's word and fasting for 21 days is a big commitment. Hang in there.

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  2. I have never see a blog before.So I hope I am doing this right. I know that you will be able to do this fast. I will read and pray for you each day. You go girl. See you tomorrow.
    Donna

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